I am here, at my computer, wasting my time. I would have gone to the birthday party tonight, but last minutes things couldn't make that possible.
I am fed up!!! I am going to become a revolucionaria. Maybe life does not flow the way I want to, but I would do anything for it to flow in another direction. Perhaps change the direction to one degree at least. You may say that things could be worse. But perhaps not, in my optimistic and revolutionary point of view. I am like Anakin, I am going to the dark side because for me the jedis are evil. Life is evil.
Let me share my bad things with you. I have a numerous and ridiculous amount of homework. Just check this stupid things:
- Math - I have a quiz to do the day I come back and then I have to do some paper past questions
- TOK essay
- World Lit essay
- Blog assignment
- any incomplete last-minute Bio work
- Finish reading a Spanish book and then do the summary of all the chapters
- computers project - I just hate it
No plans for Christmas. Because of this. I hope some things go the way I want. For example, go to blockbuster to check if there are any cheap movies, buy a game for my PSP and go to my doctor.
Also I am fed up that stupid boys of my class recycle jokes. Why do they take an exaggerated phrase as a realistic thing. I can't tolerate this. If I come back to school in January and these stupid boys make that stupid same comments they make, then I would explode.
Also I saw the pictures of the prefects headmaster reception. They are pathetic, some of the people. How can they use school resources (el tent ese cholero y las luces) and use them in their stupid private party? That is similar to what Perla did with ANDA. I pay for those things and they just use them for their garden. That is equally the same as me selling school property. Well, this is just me making my point of view.
I am such a loser. I have no direction in the future. What it is going to be of me after school? Maybe a random or exactly what I predicted thing will occur.
My mood is currently very angry and fed up. I may sound pitiful, but no! Bloggers deceive what I want to convey. If I get to suicide, which is the best way to do it? I think with a gun on my head or perhaps withtoxic gas which gets immediatly to my lungs and destroys the alveoli, without any harm. Then I sleep in peace. Just like my poor puppy. I still mourn for her. I got over with the other 2 puppies, but her...she was different. I just saw her and she was very cute and unique. I used to imagine how she was going to be when she grows up. But I experimented the death of a pet. Not really a pet, but almost a daughter to me. I saw her born, I took care of her and I wanted to see her in her new home. I still remember how she was struggling with death. The end of that struggle is intact and burnt in my mind. Then I cried. Never going to forget that day.
Life is very unfair. I lived with a fake name during my whole life. Not just one, but many.
I am tired. Not looking forward to come back to school.
3 comments:
hey, ese tu post no me gusto. q tenes en contra d los prefects?
i know how it feels to lose i pet, i've lost one too.
solo xq no pudistes ir a una fiesta q ni querias ir no es el fin del mundo, y todos tenemos un vergo de deberes para las vacas.
As heard in Batman Begins, justice and revenge are not the same. Justice is to get it even, while revenge is to hurt somebody for you to feel better. I clearly not taking revenge of somebody, because I am not feeling any better. I am talking about justice, which isn't a bad thing to talk about.
The prefect system doesn't work. They have being called many times. Some people even confuse me as a prefect, which I find it quite stupid, because they do not know what a prefect is really about. I ask those people to give me an answer of why I am not a prefect, and they don't know. So is just a thing that God did not want me to do. anyway, if I were a prefect or even a teacher, I would find it quite outrageous that they use school property in their private party. so it is not only the prefects, is the whole school.
About the party, I don't care. They stole the birthday girl camera, so a bunch of thieves only go to that kind of party. Anyway, I have my own XL Cool bottle and music, so why do I want a party. Maybe the only reason for me to go to that party was to see Mr. Hood.
About homewrok, I do not have time. I have to go to the restaurant, since my sister is going to study to college and my cousin who wroks at the restaurant is going to China. Y puu, no te imaginas como se llena en christmas y new year. So I do not have time for hwks and not even for entertainment.
it wasn't a private party, its a school party, for the school headmaster, the school board, the school founders, some school teachers and the school prefects, which believe it or not, do alot of work, and very USEFUL work. geez
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