May 10

Someone: "So did you congratulate your mom today?"

Me: "Hmmm no. She is not here..."

This is the second time after my mom passed away that they have asked this question. And I still don't know how to answer it. Do people expect to hear a "yes" and some story of how I called her first thing in the morning? And I don't know if the person that asked me the question understood that my mother wasn't here anymore or if she is out of the country.

Last year they asked me that same question and I said "no." The person that asked the question jokingly called me a bad daughter. I don't blame him, he didn't know.

Last night a lot of memories of the past flowed my mind while I was trying to sleep after studying for my EE42 final. Memories which I would like to capture in a frame and see it anytime later. But they just come all of the sudden. And it makes me wonder (and makes me stay up all night :S) and think about all the "what ifs?"

Well, I should go back to study. Finals week coming up! Don't forget to congratulate your mom! I think becoming a mom will be one of my proudest moments of my life (I am half joking here).

Well, maybe I'll call my dog. She was a mother of 9!